“Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. Those who do not recover are those who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program.” –The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
“Half measures availed us nothing.” — The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
When in active addiction, a person becomes willing to go ANY LENGTH to use. Whether it be by lying, hiding, cheating, stealing, etc., the addicted person will find a way to use – that is the DRIVE of addiction.
When a person seeks help and begins the process of recovery, the same energy and motivation that has been put towards the addiction has to now be invested in their recovery process. Many people who have been through addiction and relapsed will say, “If I had just put HALF of the energy into my recovery that I put into using, I would have been very successful.”
This page is for anyone working towards recovery (recovery from anything, including addiction to helping their family member get recovery) to share their own personal “any length” stories, post any insight, funny or serious stories, encouragement for others, inspiring quote, or to pose a question to others who may share feedback.
When in active addiction, a person becomes willing to go ANY LENGTH to use. Whether it be . . . . . (I let a using partner cut my long hair while we were using. Took so long we ran out of dope. I could not sit still and the craving was so bad I walked around for 4 or 5 days with short hair on left side of my head and long hair on the right side. Who cuts hair like that anyway LS then RS ?? I lived what the AA Big Book calls “Pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization” . . . . . that is the DRIVE of addiction.
One of the greatest things about my long term recovery today is that I hardly ever think of using or drinking. The mental obsession rarely comes and when it does it’s gone in seconds.
THANK GOD I DON’T HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THAT AGAIN!!!
Buddy, I can only imagine what that looked like. Hilarious, I’m sure. I’m so glad that you are able to look back now and laugh; to know that you have a totally different life now because of your hard work. It truly is a miracle when a person gets recovery.
Attempting to navigate home in the course of the winter/spring snow storm of the early 90’s was difficult enough, not to mention the four others in the cab of my single cab pick-up truck. Fortunately, we were the only brillant travelers at that hour and in those conditions. We had recently unstocked the bar of newly wed friends at a snow party. All other cars were snowed in, but not the faithful Dodge. Eventually, we of course stuck the truck in a persons’ front lawn and in attempting to dislodge it became concerningly close to the home. We finally abandoned our efforts and walked to nearby homes. In the morning, I walked miles to my home, through deep snow, over downed trees and across downed power lines. My glasses continually iced over, leaving my vision very limited. One kind soul urged me inside and provided me with gloves and a hat. I believe he may have had concerns about my decision-making ability. Well-founded concerns. I eventually made it home and in time to come dislodged my truck.
To my amazement today, I lived much of the time in this manner. A strange mix of altered mood, comic stubborness and lack of care. I have leaned a lot on grace. This month I hope to celebrate 12 years of recovery, for which I am exceedingly grateful. I have often thought that if there was hope for me, then there must be hope for many. That widening circle of peace on earth and good will to men Bill W. spoke about.
Welcome to my blog about addiction. When I use the word addiction, I am referring to any obsessive-compulsive behaviors involving chemical subtances, food, sex, gambling, shopping, exercise, work, the computer/internet, stealing, video games, and other pleasurable behaviors. Although a large portion of the discussion is dedicated to substance addiction, a majority of the information can also be applied to other addictions/compulsions. But, the point is that anything pleasurable can become addictive, and all pleasure involves the neurochemical DOPAMINE. Understanding how this chemical works is key to recovery.